the things

how was your day?

"But I'd be too tired to say all of that. So I'd just cry, or yell, or smile and say "fine," and then run to Target to wander aisles aimlessly, because that's all I ever really wanted. But I'd be a little sad because love is about really being seen and known and I wasn't being seen or known then. Everything was really hard to explain. It made me lonely."

Allman Brown & Liz Lawrence

And I, will hold you tight, like the moon

in the arms of the sky

And I, will keep you warm, I will build a fire in this house

And I, I'll wrap myself around your heart

I'll be the walls of his heart

And I, I'll keep the light on, to call you back home

iain thomas

"All the coldest, hardest people you meet were once as soft as water.
And that's the tragedy of living".

my deepest, darkest secret

i'm terrified that one day you're going to wake up and realize that i am not the things you imagined me to be. that you had hoped i could be. that you had believed me to be. that i am not special or unique, for you, in any way. that i only simply love you. and that you will hate me for loving you. and i'm terrified because i know the first parts are true. there is nothing very special or unique or awe-worthy. but i will love you. i will love you even when there is nothing else i can do or anything else i can give. and me loving you may be the only thing i can give. but i will give it all.

i've been hated for loving before. i've been left because of it.
i hope you can tolerate being loved.
i need someone to tolerate it.

and i hope you can love me.