Thursday, February 23, 2012

letting go

forgive the time spent with a man you now have not one nice thing to say about.
and forgive just how long it is taking to get over him. 
he was not good and not kind and he is not your fault.
keep some secrets closer.
forgive the nights you cannot sleep--sadness or some unnamed force pressing heavy on your chest.
forgive the mistakes of the last several years. so you made them. okay. enough. move on.
the mistakes and the fault-lines, they are the foundation.
forgive yourself that you did not choose an easier path.
fear was large and biting. 
forgive the anger you feel. feel it and then look again with kinder eyes.
forgive yourself for not handling it all better, for feeling like you let others down.
the path is not done, the road is not finished, why are you trying so hard to rush the whole thing?
celebrate the fact that your story has some major departures.
humanity made visible!
you will be loved all the more for this. you will love yourself all the more for this.
and please, for the love of all that is good and holy forgive yourself for loving a man who cannot love you back.
send that love into the world and let it fill you up.
the only way to know the story is to go out and and write it. live your way into it.
ferociously. begin to live and work and fight and love with an unparalleled ferocity.
let fear dictate nothing.
unfurl your chest, you have all the armor you'll ever need.

adapted from the wild and wily ways..