Wednesday, February 20, 2013
when the one i wanted, did not want me.
I was almost rabid
Would’ve lunged at any thing
thrown my way
carcass, shadow, memory, promise
shell of a man.
I thought it was better
to be loved by a dead thing
than to be left alone.
Then I loved a dead thing
and was completely alone.
Sunday, February 17, 2013
"Sometimes I'm walking along the street and a shaft of sunlight falls in a certain way across the pavement and I just wanna cry. And then a second later, it's over. I decide because I'm an adult, to not succumb to the momentary melancholy; And I thought that sometimes with my niece, she just had a moment like that. A moment of not knowing how or why, and she just let herself go into the feeling and there was nothing anyone could do to make it any better. It was just her and the fact of being alive, colliding."
Margot-Take this Waltz
Thursday, February 14, 2013
you learn how to love, by loving yourself.
because some days it comes easily, and some days its much harder than it should be.
you learn that love is patience.
and overwhelming kindness.
that love is acceptance and forgiveness and the strength to try again tomorrow.
and if you can't love yourself in that way that is whole and broken and completely exhausting,
then you have no hope at ever loving another living soul.